But I'm also caught thinking that they are so lucky to have found the lifestyle they love, that they have an opportunity to work passionately to support. I support nudism, and am invested in advocating for it, but even if I had the people skills to do something like this, I worry that I have too much of a preoccupation with beauty and sex-positivity to be viewed as "pure" enough of a nudist. And the reality is, I love nudism, but the lifestyle is still not a 100% perfect fit for me. And I fear that that perfect fit doesn't exist.
I'm just too much of a unique individual. I would love to meet a community that had all the same core beliefs that I have, with which I could share a mutual and unshaking respect. To which I could give my talents and my passions fully and wholeheartedly, to represent and advocate on behalf of. Instead, I feel lost and alone, drifting in a sea of people I can only ever relate to to a point. I like the idea behind the concept of "finding your tribe", but my search has been in vain all my life. I don't think I have one. And that makes me sad. Because I could be so much more than I am. If I could only find somewhere I belong.
Just like me, you seem too individualistic to identify with a group. But we try our best with all situations
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I think I lack a quality that most humans possess, which is the drive to conform, out of a desire to belong to a group. I could, hypothetically, change myself to better fit in - and I see people do this all the time. But it doesn't feel right to me. I am who I am and I'm not going to change just so I can be more like somebody else. It's not authentic, and I don't have the ability to pull it off. But it doesn't mean I don't get lonely, being the only person in the world who's just like me.
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