Saturday, December 16, 2017

Winter Coat

How do you tell if someone who is naked under their heavy winter jacket is an exhibitionist or just a nudist? I think it depends on the conditions under which they will open their coat. Of course, that's assuming the unflattering stereotype that exhibitionism relies on non-consent, when it could be the case that the exhibitionist simply enjoys the secret knowledge of being naked under his coat without needing anyone else to suspect anything unusual. What if it's not the shock and dismay, but the mere fact of being naked (to one extent or another) in a crowd or outdoors or in a public place that the exhibitionist takes pleasure in? And what if that pleasure is not strictly sexual in nature (in the sense of causing sexual stimulation, and being used directly as a masturbatory aid), but just something from which the "exhibitionist" derives delight? Are we not then just talking about a nudist? Or is a nudist not allowed to "enjoy being nude" too much? If this is neither nudism nor exhibitionism, then what exactly should we call it? We have words for non-explicit, sensual eroticism, but we do not properly recognize it for what it is - non-explicitly sexual. If it has anything whatsoever to do with sex, it's forbidden. Call something "erotic" and the masses rush to cover their children's eyes, and toss it into the stigmatized bin of "pornography".

I know it's "dangerous" (for nudists, at least) to blur the line between sex and nudity, but I hope you'll see that the line between nudism and exhibitionism (and also voyeurism) is not so clear cut. I'm not saying that to justify any kind of behavior that is not appropriate in a nudist context, but to demonstrate why these subjects so often get tangled up. It's not some insidious strategy by a cabal of perverts. It's human nature. And while we can dictate the rules at a nudist venue (and we should!) - to preserve the decorum of civilized society - we should understand that there are not two distinct peoples in the world: nudists, and exhibitionists; and that, somehow, exhibitionists "just don't get it". Sometimes they overlap. Sometimes nudity is erotic. And sometimes it's not. There is room in this wonderful world for both - we must simply have faith that man can learn where and when one is appropriate and the other is not (and then assist in teaching him). There's no reason to pledge allegiance to one and disparage the other outright. Perverts tend to accept this more readily than nudists do - although that makes sense, since the latter has more to lose. But I'll take the truth over political posturing any day of the week. And twice on Sundays.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Showering At The Beach

Another outtake from last summer before we dive into something more seasonal. How often do you get the opportunity to set up a camera in a public shower facility? They're usually either too public (and you don't want to risk giving anyone the impression that you're trying to violate their privacy - to paraphrase the Marquis de Sade, I'm a pervert, not a criminal), or there's nowhere to put the camera.

It's just too bad I have to rely on such poor production values (and it's awfully hard to shower when one of your hands is occupied with keeping the water flowing). I enjoy showering in the (semi-)open air, and I think it's a fruitful subject for a visual documentary - all that skin, wetness, and rubbing... It's a shame we live in such a prudish society.

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

In Your Eyes

I've mentioned before (though not often, as it's not a frequent occurrence) how much I like seeing how another person captures me in the camera lens. I'm intimately familiar with how I look posing in front of my own camera, and I like the high level of control it affords me over the creative process (in spite of its great limitations).

You'd think it wouldn't make much difference who's behind the camera, because what you're seeing in the frame is the same thing, but anyone with even a little experience with photography will know the ocean of difference that can exist between two people looking at the same scene, applying their own perspective, equipment, talent, and experience to capturing a shot. After all, a famous photographer once said that a photograph is a document of a relationship - the relationship between the model and the photographer.

I've long said that I wished I could make friends with some photographers, so I could have people at hand in casual, spontaneous situations to take pictures of me - situations where it's awfully difficult for me to set up a self-portrait, and which, as a result, haven't really been documented in my self-portrait photography. But I'm a bit of a recluse, and as such, I have only one person that hangs out with me a lot, who on rare occasions (she is, unfortunately, not a shutterbug by nature) feels inspired to take my picture.

Not being as experienced as me, the composition and framing of those pictures is not always up to my impossibly high standards, and I don't like not having complete control over my posing and, ultimately, how my body looks, but every now and then a shot will come out that resonates with me, and I'm always fascinated by the things I've never been able to capture in my own self-portraits - that casual, spontaneous feel; the real, unposed emotions; and those non-tripod-friendly angles. These are just a few fairly recent examples:

Copyright notice: The photographer and I have an agreement whereby I am the custodian of her copyright for purposes of online publication (although I have no desire to claim credit for them) on pictures she's taken of me, since I am a semi-professional model and photographer with a brand and a web presence, and she is not (and has no real desire to be).

Monday, December 11, 2017

Rotating 3D Image

While we're on the subject of outtakes, here is a [previously] unfinished project from last year. I ended up drowning in the code and never got around to finishing it - until now! I was inspired by those 3D rotating product images you see sometimes, where you can click and drag your mouse to rotate the product in the image, and I thought it would be a fun way to present myself as a nude model. Check it out! I made two versions - one plain, where I'm standing straight with my arms to my sides, and another one with some more dynamic poses. Here are the frames in sequence, but you should definitely click those links and check out the interactive versions!

Friday, December 8, 2017

River Totem

Another outtake from last summer. This time with a "human tripod" (i.e., I composed the shot, then had someone else press the trigger after I got into place). A rocky outcropping like that just begs to be stood upon!

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

Summer Outtakes

I usually reserve January for going back through the photos I've taken over the year, but I came across these two outtakes from last summer that never made publication - until now.

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Some More Bathroom Selfies

I'm pretty sure I never posted these. It happens from time to time, and it's getting harder for me to keep track, as my library of photos continually grows. But these are from the shoot that produced this shot.

This was also taken on the same day - a playful reminder of what sometimes lies hidden under a thin layer of clothing:

Saturday, December 2, 2017

On The Scale

It's time for some more Why Nudism? outtakes - from my latest shot in the series! I'd say we're about 3/4 of the way through this project, depending on how many of my remaining ideas I'll be able to shoot - I've come up with several new ones since I started, but some of them are going to be impossible to realize. It's funny to think that I had originally envisioned this as a summer project, yet here we are in December! If I'm lucky, I'll be able to end it with a shot in the snow!

Friday, December 1, 2017

Why Nudism? (Part 15)

I suspect this is going to be another one of those reasons that maybe not all nudists share. But while the lifestyle accepts everyone with open arms, some will inevitably approach it from a health-conscious perspective. For example, one of the preeminent naturist magazines in the UK is titled "Health & Efficiency". Being exposed to bodies of all shapes and sizes has a positive, normalizing effect that serves to counter media exposure to images of perfection (more on that here). But part of loving your body includes taking care of it. After all, you can't live without it, and you only get one. So although you can learn to be comfortable in your skin, and love your body no matter what it looks like, it's still a good idea to look after your health. And while there is no excuse for waiting until you're fit to engage in nudism (because nobody is going to be judging you!), being naked around other people can have an encouraging effect on your desire to get and stay in shape. Whether you work out, exercise regularly, play sports, or watch your diet, if you take pride in your appearance, you should feel confident showing it off!

Thursday, November 30, 2017


You'd think I'd be getting tired of these bathroom self-portraits by now. Maybe I'm beginning to.

I like the juxtaposition in the first one between the covering, and what lies beneath (i.e., the heathen suggestion that we're naked under our clothes), and in the second one, the look of the clothes just hanging off the model, almost as if it were a statue draped in a cloth or something.

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Glam Rocker

Have you seen my new guitar yet? Pink glitter from Daisy Rock. You should see how it sparkles in the light!

Here's a short video. Unamplified, so there isn't much to hear. But I've always wanted to perform nude on the guitar. This is what that might look like:

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Straight Model, Gay Audience

An anonymous reader has recently left a comment that has inspired some pretty interesting ruminations about the disparity between my sexual orientation and the demographic constitution of my audience (as an artist and model). I thought my response deserved a post of its own.

"being 'straight' is it awkward knowing men masturbate to you? is it a weird form of turn on? (noting that you have many pictures of you presenting your ass hole in your pictures.)"

These are good questions, with complex answers. That most of my audience is male is certainly something I've had to get used to. But as an exhibitionist, I like the feeling of being desired. When I model for erotic art, I'm not looking for hookups - so it really doesn't matter if I'm attracted to the people who appreciate my work. Even if it were women, most of them would still be people I am not specifically attracted to (I have types and preferences; I don't just lust after anything with a vagina). My body of art is for the world to enjoy, not just a few lucky individuals I happen to single out as desirable. That I can contribute to the orgasms of people I am not attracted to - without having to get my hands dirty - pleases me as a sex-positive humanitarian. If I were running for political office, my campaign slogan would be "orgasms for everyone!"

As far as the types of poses I use, I got started out imitating female models because that's what I like - it's what I know. This has actually contributed to my discovery and exploration of my transgender identity. I also happen to enjoy the submissive element, psychologically, of being the receiver in a sexual coupling. It allows me to "feel like a girl". It doesn't necessarily mean that I want a man to be on the other end - a lot of men enjoy anal stimulation and/or penetration, but only from women. That's because the act - the stimulation - can be separated from the person performing it with/on you; it does not rely on a particular type of person (that's why, for example, a woman can enjoy cunnilingus without being a lesbian).

I don't like to get hung up on the "I'm straight" thing, because the fact is, I'm very open-minded, and willing to explore whatever it is that gives me pleasure (and, as a model, what gives other people pleasure, as long as it's within my comfort zone). I also think the terms "gay" and "straight" are problematic for people with non-cisgendered identities. That having been said, I have very little interest or desire in having a sexual relationship or encounter with a man. I wouldn't rule out the possibility completely, and I like to encourage a more fluid interpretation of my sexuality (because there's no virtue in being uptight these days), but sometimes I have to be clear about my interests to avoid undesirable situations. As an artist and model, I am presenting a fantasy to the world - open to interpretation, but not available to take home to bed with you. If you're comfortable with that, then I'm comfortable with that.

Monday, November 27, 2017

Sarong Comparison

As hard as it is to believe that so much time has passed, next year is the ten year anniversary of the Daily Nudes project that launched my erotic photography hobby in earnest. So, I've been thinking back on some of my old photographs a lot lately. I staged a reconstruction of this one photo taken in September of 2008. The photo on the right was taken just recently, more than nine years after the one on the left. This kind of thing fascinates me - to see how closely I can get to the original, even as doing so magnifies the sometimes subtle things that have changed.

My life was very dark ten years ago - literally, as I lived a more or less nocturnal schedule. There's a lot more sunshine in my life now, although that's not evident in this picture. I'm hoping to do a number of homages to my original Daily Nudes project over the course of the next year. I don't live in the same place, so they may be more spiritual successors than note-for-note recreations, but I think it'll be fun.

Thursday, November 23, 2017

Why Nudism? (Part 14)

Nudists have another saying - "nude, not lewd" - which is meant to emphasize the difference between a nudist's state of dress, and his behavior - that nudity is simply a state of being, while lewdness is a state of doing. "Indecent exposure" laws often presume that a person exposing their genitals to others (outside of a bedroom context) is doing so for illicit sexual gratification, and will therefore be accompanied by lewd behavior. But this is not necessarily the case. That's why I've taken the stereotype of the "trench coat flasher", and crossed it with the trope of a gentleman laying his coat down over a puddle for a lady to step over. A lot of people misunderstand nudism to be a form of exhibitionism - that nudists get some kind of sexual thrill from exposing themselves to others. Hopefully, this image demonstrates that that's really not the point. Nudists are (generally speaking) naked for reasons of comfort and convenience, and because they don't have the hangups about their bodies that many people have. The point that I think a lot of nudists would like to make is that what you're wearing isn't so important as how you behave - that you can be naked, and still be a perfectly decent human being.

This pink dress worked out perfectly for this theme. I was very happy to be able to add a gender-bending clone shot to this series, since it's so characteristic of my work. I was very excited about this theme in general - I thought it was pretty clever. The shoot was challenging though, because it was cold - the high that day was under 50 degrees - and raining, and I was out taking pictures with nothing on half the time. Totally worth it, though. I was concerned about getting some good shots in such a short time frame (so I could go back inside and warm up), but I think it worked out nicely!

Wednesday, November 22, 2017


Dozens of channels.

A mint on every pillow.

And free wi-fi.

Enjoy your stay!

Monday, November 20, 2017

Friday, November 17, 2017

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Pulp Fiction

(Revisiting an old theme).

Come suck me off while I read the part where Jesus gets flogged. :-3

Monday, November 13, 2017

Hiking Free

This is me setting up my camera in the woods before taking the shot that I used for the latest entry in my Why Nudism? series. In addition to that shot, I have another one taken from the back:

I was only going to take a few shots and then get dressed (because I wasn't all that far off the path, and these days you can't go anywhere outdoors without running into other people), but the weather was beautiful (unusually so for this late in the year), and I felt so comfortable and at peace in the great outdoors with my full body exposed to the open air, that I couldn't resist at least walking for a little bit before getting dressed again. I guess you could say the spirit of freehiking took over. Although, I didn't get far before I got distracted...

Oh noes!! Nudism gone wild!!1

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Why Nudism? (Part 12)

(Don't worry, I'm completely aware that I posted Part 13 out of order. I just thought it was the perfect theme and the perfect number for Halloween. The order of these posts is pretty much arbitrary anyway. I'll probably reorder them in the final series when it's done, if it even matters what order they're in).

Freehiking - the practice of hiking nude, usually in state or national parks that are not specifically designated for nudism, but are spread out enough to allow for a moderate expectation of privacy - is a popular nudist pastime, especially for those nudists who do not have convenient access to a gated club (and sometimes those who are developing an interest in nudism, but haven't worked up the courage to visit an organized community yet). It also dovetails quite nicely with the ethos of "naturism" - nudism from a naturalistic standpoint. What better way to enjoy the great outdoors than to do so naked, the way Mother Earth intends? If it were up to me, all state and national parks would be clothing optional, and freehiking would be as popular a pastime as skinny dipping.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

On Top of the World

With many thanks to my "assistant", without whom these pictures would never have been taken (the wind was actually blowing my tripod over!).

So, we were on top of this tower with a commanding view of the countryside - and of the path leading up to the tower. What's more, you have to climb four flights of rickety steps to get to the top, so there's plenty of time to make yourself "presentable" if you see or hear somebody coming. (Although there's less coverage in the fall when the trees thin out).

At the tail end of an impromptu photo session, I was preparing to perform a back bend for the camera, when my partner noticed a few people coming up the trail down below. She was, understandably, a bit skittish, but I knew I had plenty of time, so I went ahead with the back bend anyway (knowing there were people approaching), trusting my partner to hurry up and get the shot before she went into panic mode.

And I still had plenty of time to get dressed before the visitors reached the top of the tower, none the wiser for what had just been transpiring there, at which point the two of us took our leave. But the real kicker was that the new arrivals were wearing t-shirts indicating that they were part of some church group. :-3 But hey, no harm, no foul.