Friday, December 29, 2017

Living Flame

Here's something hot to warm you up on this stretch of what's proving to be the coldest days of the year!

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Blue Light Xmas

You're probably familiar with this tradition by now. I'm wondering how much longer I ought to keep it going. Is there ever a point where it becomes appropriate to retire a longstanding tradition? On the one hand, when you keep doing the same thing over and over again, you eventually run out of ideas and it begins to grow stale; you want to reallocate that creativity to something a little more fresh. But on the other hand, how can you stop doing something you've been doing for so long? Like, one year, you're just going to wake up and decide, this is where it ends?

I'm fascinated with the passage of time, and photo projects of this sort, so I'll probably keep it up as long as I have the opportunity (and there's no telling how long that will last - due to all the factors that are outside of my control). In the end, I suppose the effort of taking a few pictures you might decide you don't want is easier than the agony of looking back and regretting not having taken them for whatever reason. Maybe it's a little bit narcissistic, but I'd like to believe that there could be some anthropological value in my extended archive of photographic memories, if I ever amount to anything in my life - or after it.

In my new pajamas... new Santa dress (a little bit more modest than in past years)...

...and out of it!

And a few bonuses. I think I have a fascination for shooting in this room mainly because it was off-limits for so long; it's one of the few places in this house that's still relatively "new" to me.

And, with that, I think Xmas is finally over! Rejoice!

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Blue Robe Boner

I have a few more Xmas pics to share with you yet, but in case you're already sick of the holidays (and I can't blame you), here's something a little bit different to give you a break.

Monday, December 25, 2017

Tree Moments (Xmas Morning)

Wake up, it's Xmas morning!

Pass those presents around!

Santa's got a special present for the boys and girls on his naughty list.

If you're really good, Santa might come a second time!

Sunday, December 24, 2017

Tree Moments (Dressed)

Once again, we are referring to the tree. :-p

Topping it off...

How does it look?

Aw, hell; it's fun to dress up!

And even more fun to strip! -_^

Are your holidays happy yet?

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Tree Moments (Naked)

I'm referring to the tree, of course. :-p

Aw, what the hell! :-3

Adjusting the tree's position, and tightening the screws.

Ok, now I'm just fooling around.

And the topper will go here...

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Naked and Dressed (Xmas Edition)

It's hard to keep things fresh year after year after year, but I think this is a clever variation on a familiar theme (I still like the Christmas Cards I put together two years ago).

Monday, December 18, 2017

Why Nudism? (Part 16)

Though I am a model today, it took me a long time to find the beauty within myself. I never thought I was attractive until other people started telling me so with some regularity. And though I love my body now, I've been told some pretty insulting things. My first time going nude in a social setting (not a specifically nudist environment - which was my mistake), I overheard somebody referring to me as an example of the type of person who "just doesn't look good naked". Yet nowadays I like to joke that it should be a crime to cover up my naked body with clothes! I've been called a "freakish man-woman thing", and have even been ridiculed for the size of my penis (by someone who's apparently never handled one and doesn't understand how they work). Yet I'm proud of the way I can bend genders, and my genitalia is more than adequate (exceptional, even - so I've been told) when it needs to be. The point is, it doesn't matter how beautiful or how ugly anybody thinks you are, you have to learn to love yourself. It doesn't happen automatically, but it's critical for your health.

Sunday, December 17, 2017

The First Snow

Not the first snow of the year, in actual fact, but the first real snow - one that sticks (it just feels different). There's no denying it now; winter is here!

By way of comparison, here's a test video I took last summer in about the same spot, while it was raining:

Saturday, December 16, 2017

Winter Coat

How do you tell if someone who is naked under their heavy winter jacket is an exhibitionist or just a nudist? I think it depends on the conditions under which they will open their coat. Of course, that's assuming the unflattering stereotype that exhibitionism relies on non-consent, when it could be the case that the exhibitionist simply enjoys the secret knowledge of being naked under his coat without needing anyone else to suspect anything unusual. What if it's not the shock and dismay, but the mere fact of being naked (to one extent or another) in a crowd or outdoors or in a public place that the exhibitionist takes pleasure in? And what if that pleasure is not strictly sexual in nature (in the sense of causing sexual stimulation, and being used directly as a masturbatory aid), but just something from which the "exhibitionist" derives delight? Are we not then just talking about a nudist? Or is a nudist not allowed to "enjoy being nude" too much? If this is neither nudism nor exhibitionism, then what exactly should we call it? We have words for non-explicit, sensual eroticism, but we do not properly recognize it for what it is - non-explicitly sexual. If it has anything whatsoever to do with sex, it's forbidden. Call something "erotic" and the masses rush to cover their children's eyes, and toss it into the stigmatized bin of "pornography".

I know it's "dangerous" (for nudists, at least) to blur the line between sex and nudity, but I hope you'll see that the line between nudism and exhibitionism (and also voyeurism) is not so clear cut. I'm not saying that to justify any kind of behavior that is not appropriate in a nudist context, but to demonstrate why these subjects so often get tangled up. It's not some insidious strategy by a cabal of perverts. It's human nature. And while we can dictate the rules at a nudist venue (and we should!) - to preserve the decorum of civilized society - we should understand that there are not two distinct peoples in the world: nudists, and exhibitionists; and that, somehow, exhibitionists "just don't get it". Sometimes they overlap. Sometimes nudity is erotic. And sometimes it's not. There is room in this wonderful world for both - we must simply have faith that man can learn where and when one is appropriate and the other is not (and then assist in teaching him). There's no reason to pledge allegiance to one and disparage the other outright. Perverts tend to accept this more readily than nudists do - although that makes sense, since the latter has more to lose. But I'll take the truth over political posturing any day of the week. And twice on Sundays.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Showering At The Beach

Another outtake from last summer before we dive into something more seasonal. How often do you get the opportunity to set up a camera in a public shower facility? They're usually either too public (and you don't want to risk giving anyone the impression that you're trying to violate their privacy - to paraphrase the Marquis de Sade, I'm a pervert, not a criminal), or there's nowhere to put the camera.

It's just too bad I have to rely on such poor production values (and it's awfully hard to shower when one of your hands is occupied with keeping the water flowing). I enjoy showering in the (semi-)open air, and I think it's a fruitful subject for a visual documentary - all that skin, wetness, and rubbing... It's a shame we live in such a prudish society.

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

In Your Eyes

I've mentioned before (though not often, as it's not a frequent occurrence) how much I like seeing how another person captures me in the camera lens. I'm intimately familiar with how I look posing in front of my own camera, and I like the high level of control it affords me over the creative process (in spite of its great limitations).

You'd think it wouldn't make much difference who's behind the camera, because what you're seeing in the frame is the same thing, but anyone with even a little experience with photography will know the ocean of difference that can exist between two people looking at the same scene, applying their own perspective, equipment, talent, and experience to capturing a shot. After all, a famous photographer once said that a photograph is a document of a relationship - the relationship between the model and the photographer.

I've long said that I wished I could make friends with some photographers, so I could have people at hand in casual, spontaneous situations to take pictures of me - situations where it's awfully difficult for me to set up a self-portrait, and which, as a result, haven't really been documented in my self-portrait photography. But I'm a bit of a recluse, and as such, I have only one person that hangs out with me a lot, who on rare occasions (she is, unfortunately, not a shutterbug by nature) feels inspired to take my picture.

Not being as experienced as me, the composition and framing of those pictures is not always up to my impossibly high standards, and I don't like not having complete control over my posing and, ultimately, how my body looks, but every now and then a shot will come out that resonates with me, and I'm always fascinated by the things I've never been able to capture in my own self-portraits - that casual, spontaneous feel; the real, unposed emotions; and those non-tripod-friendly angles. These are just a few fairly recent examples:

Copyright notice: The photographer and I have an agreement whereby I am the custodian of her copyright for purposes of online publication (although I have no desire to claim credit for them) on pictures she's taken of me, since I am a semi-professional model and photographer with a brand and a web presence, and she is not (and has no real desire to be).

Monday, December 11, 2017

Rotating 3D Image

While we're on the subject of outtakes, here is a [previously] unfinished project from last year. I ended up drowning in the code and never got around to finishing it - until now! I was inspired by those 3D rotating product images you see sometimes, where you can click and drag your mouse to rotate the product in the image, and I thought it would be a fun way to present myself as a nude model. Check it out! I made two versions - one plain, where I'm standing straight with my arms to my sides, and another one with some more dynamic poses. Here are the frames in sequence, but you should definitely click those links and check out the interactive versions!

Friday, December 8, 2017

River Totem

Another outtake from last summer. This time with a "human tripod" (i.e., I composed the shot, then had someone else press the trigger after I got into place). A rocky outcropping like that just begs to be stood upon!

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

Summer Outtakes

I usually reserve January for going back through the photos I've taken over the year, but I came across these two outtakes from last summer that never made publication - until now.

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Some More Bathroom Selfies

I'm pretty sure I never posted these. It happens from time to time, and it's getting harder for me to keep track, as my library of photos continually grows. But these are from the shoot that produced this shot.

This was also taken on the same day - a playful reminder of what sometimes lies hidden under a thin layer of clothing:

Saturday, December 2, 2017

On The Scale

It's time for some more Why Nudism? outtakes - from my latest shot in the series! I'd say we're about 3/4 of the way through this project, depending on how many of my remaining ideas I'll be able to shoot - I've come up with several new ones since I started, but some of them are going to be impossible to realize. It's funny to think that I had originally envisioned this as a summer project, yet here we are in December! If I'm lucky, I'll be able to end it with a shot in the snow!

Friday, December 1, 2017

Why Nudism? (Part 15)

I suspect this is going to be another one of those reasons that maybe not all nudists share. But while the lifestyle accepts everyone with open arms, some will inevitably approach it from a health-conscious perspective. For example, one of the preeminent naturist magazines in the UK is titled "Health & Efficiency". Being exposed to bodies of all shapes and sizes has a positive, normalizing effect that serves to counter media exposure to images of perfection (more on that here). But part of loving your body includes taking care of it. After all, you can't live without it, and you only get one. So although you can learn to be comfortable in your skin, and love your body no matter what it looks like, it's still a good idea to look after your health. And while there is no excuse for waiting until you're fit to engage in nudism (because nobody is going to be judging you!), being naked around other people can have an encouraging effect on your desire to get and stay in shape. Whether you work out, exercise regularly, play sports, or watch your diet, if you take pride in your appearance, you should feel confident showing it off!

Thursday, November 30, 2017


You'd think I'd be getting tired of these bathroom self-portraits by now. Maybe I'm beginning to.

I like the juxtaposition in the first one between the covering, and what lies beneath (i.e., the heathen suggestion that we're naked under our clothes), and in the second one, the look of the clothes just hanging off the model, almost as if it were a statue draped in a cloth or something.